As 2012 draws to a close, the reflection that keeps coming up for me is simply gratitude. This has been the most transformational year of my life, personally, and I know for many others as well. It has been a profound year of change, loss, letting go, sitting with the unknown, courage, clarity, awe, expansion and contraction and depths of love I'd never known before.
It has been a year of great energetic expansions. In the dramatic final portals that mark the '2012' of mythic hype, I've personally found deep integration of the sacred and profane, the cosmos and the earth, the spirit and the heart, consciousness and embodiment. Many say this time, energetically, marks the dawning of a feminine era. As much as feminine represents embodiment and earthly integration of our infinite consciousness, I have felt this shift within. And in it, I have found a rich and deeply satisfying quality of settledness and peace. Of humanity, really. Of hearth. Of embodied spirit. The divine cross.
Recently, I had a recognition that in many ways I have begun to be the person I used to want to be, but feared that I could not. It has been a slow unfolding, through grace and grit, through courage to listen to and act on intuition, and through the gift of outstanding friends and community to support and love and help guide me on my way. And just this month, in fact on 12.21, I received the greatest gift of my life: a deep, unshakable, cellular knowing of my own inner strength and the love that is the foundation of my very being. To truly know this infinite well of love has been transformational beyond words.
I am so, so, deeply, boundlessly, infinitely grateful for all of this - the deep recognitions, the courage, the adventures, the community and tribe and support from others, the self-love, and the strength to truly be of service. There is always more, always that horizon of the unknown future and new directions for the soul's flow in this life. And yet I also feel a peace and a strength that feel like a deep turning point in my life - an ability to be of service from that place that is now a natural impulse. And yet it is also deeply self-serving - to give is to receive. This I know more and more, through chelation and friendships and other offerings, I receive so deeply as I 'give'.
In 2013 I intend to expand the role of service and giving in my life, as well as the role of creativity, passion, and focus in my work. I intend to be for others more and more what so many have been for me - a source of inspiration, acceptance, guidance, support, and seeing others for who they can be while loving them for who they are. When we love ourselves fully and know the depths of our interconnectedness, to love others is to love ourselves. It's a beautiful ampliative cycle.
With deep gratitude and awe, watching the tail edges of the sunset fading outside my window as I write, I bow goodbye to 2012, my great teacher. And with curiosity, open arms and heart, I begin the welcoming in of this new era. For now we'll call it 2013. Welcome home.
It has been a year of great energetic expansions. In the dramatic final portals that mark the '2012' of mythic hype, I've personally found deep integration of the sacred and profane, the cosmos and the earth, the spirit and the heart, consciousness and embodiment. Many say this time, energetically, marks the dawning of a feminine era. As much as feminine represents embodiment and earthly integration of our infinite consciousness, I have felt this shift within. And in it, I have found a rich and deeply satisfying quality of settledness and peace. Of humanity, really. Of hearth. Of embodied spirit. The divine cross.
Recently, I had a recognition that in many ways I have begun to be the person I used to want to be, but feared that I could not. It has been a slow unfolding, through grace and grit, through courage to listen to and act on intuition, and through the gift of outstanding friends and community to support and love and help guide me on my way. And just this month, in fact on 12.21, I received the greatest gift of my life: a deep, unshakable, cellular knowing of my own inner strength and the love that is the foundation of my very being. To truly know this infinite well of love has been transformational beyond words.
I am so, so, deeply, boundlessly, infinitely grateful for all of this - the deep recognitions, the courage, the adventures, the community and tribe and support from others, the self-love, and the strength to truly be of service. There is always more, always that horizon of the unknown future and new directions for the soul's flow in this life. And yet I also feel a peace and a strength that feel like a deep turning point in my life - an ability to be of service from that place that is now a natural impulse. And yet it is also deeply self-serving - to give is to receive. This I know more and more, through chelation and friendships and other offerings, I receive so deeply as I 'give'.
In 2013 I intend to expand the role of service and giving in my life, as well as the role of creativity, passion, and focus in my work. I intend to be for others more and more what so many have been for me - a source of inspiration, acceptance, guidance, support, and seeing others for who they can be while loving them for who they are. When we love ourselves fully and know the depths of our interconnectedness, to love others is to love ourselves. It's a beautiful ampliative cycle.
With deep gratitude and awe, watching the tail edges of the sunset fading outside my window as I write, I bow goodbye to 2012, my great teacher. And with curiosity, open arms and heart, I begin the welcoming in of this new era. For now we'll call it 2013. Welcome home.